Ever felt cold, numb even ,and it has absolutely nothing to do with the weather?
Like something somewhere ticked a thought off in your mind ,a domino effect,and you go spiraling down into parts of you that are better ignored on a normal day.
And suddenly every single thing seems vague,uncertain. You are unsure about the simplest of things ,unsure about things and feelings and emotions you take for granted.
Maybe it's necessary that you visit these parts of you, hug them tight until the restlessness inside begins to fade,when that calm monotony of thoughts begins to set in. The monotony of emotion becomes so important when you are getting into a frenzy in your head. Just some time off the overthinking,the worrying ,that things aren't going the way you want them to ,like everything is falling apart.
Maybe it isn't ,maybe life is the parts that fall apart,and join back together,like a mosaic,not the usual picture perfect rainbow you are looking out for , nonetheless - happy,colorful ,complete.
Completely broken and yet completely fixed.
Breathe.
Collect your pieces. Put them together,make sense out of the puzzle ,maybe loose a piece or two in the process,stumble upon them later,when you are ready to be complete or just when destiny gets you there.
Till then enjoy the little things,parts of the big picture you are dreaming of, creating.
Look at the parts which are cohesive ,which make sense,and well at the end of the day all you can do is hope ,hope that the rest of it will make sense too :')
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